Tuesday, January 3, 2017

Real friends

I've read many, many blogs blogs of girls like me and one of the consistent topics regarding transitioning is how it affects relationships with family and friends. I'm only going to focus on friends for this post (which hopefully ends up making sense) 😀

The thing is, I don't know if I have any "real" friends. Don't get me wrong, I have tons of aquantiances that I am certainly friendly with - but I don't think I have any close friends (besides my wife if you count her). The reason I say this is because I've been living a lie, wearing a full body suit and mask of the wrong gender my entire life. No one besides my wife knows the real me - and even that might not be 100% true as I'm still working on understanding 100% of me myself. 😟

I've always had this wall, this barrier to the real me - pretending to be something I'm not. With that ever present how could I have really created and nurtured real, honest, meaningful relationships with anyone? I've had good friends, and still have good friends but never really a tight-knit BFF bond with anyone.

As I continue to work on understanding 100% of me, and continue to be open and honest with my wife and eventually all of my family and friends, then I'll have the foundation for "real friendship" with anyone. So when I do eventually completely and fully "come out" there really aren't many cons (just pros) concerning all the friends I have. If they don't want to continue to be friends with me then no skin off my nose. If they do, then I can focus on building real friendships and maybe even finding a BFF 😜😁 who might be someone I haven't even met yet. How exciting!!